Music Keeps Me Going

Well... My name is Ruhani and I'm 14 years old. I look happy, just like any other 14 year old girl. But I'm not. Look into my mind (aka my tumblr) and you'll see. You'll understand what realy goes through my head on a daily basis. The messed up thoughts. Everything. My tumblr may not be the happiest of places, but if you have ever felt so insecure about yourself, and you've hated yourself so much, you'll understand why it isn't so happy. The only things keeping me somewhat happy right now are music, my best friend Kyra, and one direction (technically they fall under the music category, but they are so much more than just music to me).
So here's a look into my mind.
Enjoy.